Problem

They keep ruining my plans for my dad's oldest sister.  Why look up to anyone who does that?

Reading Into Things..


Some people just say whatever is convenient, like that I am a nigger.

TV

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Congratulations to Ellen for the 1,800th show!  That memory box was amazing!

I liked the audience singing Mic Jagger's song.  It was so amazing also that the guy Adam Levine from Maroon 5 ("I cross my heart and I hope to die..") and The Voice was on.

Ellen on Game of Thrones was really neat.  I am starting to watch more popular things on TV - I like the Big Bang Theory .. saw Sabrina, Full House-

The part at the end about making a trade was cool, too.  I just realized that people were on the show more than 1 day in a row and now you can only get the audience ticket once a season.  Interesting, yes? but not very important, in some ways.  No offense, just commenting..

Mad Lately

I just found I didn't take my pills this morning.  My mom didn't get them out.

Also, before, I thought something violent but not really, I was so mad like with myself.  I am trying to not fix it now, and I just go along, even if I feel submissive, I just brush that thought aside.  I was mainly upset because things could get to me and no one would care.

Something I can talk about is my dad said I was usually asleep on Fridays for lunch.. it's a kind thing to say, but with it comes discomfort..  It's not something he said before.  I mean, if he said it upfront would be okay.  It seems alright..  It makes me sad.  I am sad I may have hurt him sorta by accident, like when I'm mad and close the door-

I also care about other people who are ^affected^ by me.  What do you expect?

Mobile

may or may not post

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Problem

I talked about Ellen's pix as a kid being suggestive, and now I'm treated with being taken advantage.  Also, I was upset and admitted it to myself and it made me think violent "things."  My life is just tough, and peoiple have no right to monitor me like this.

Problem

Someone answered me about Karen Carpenter, and I listened to her recently but didn't speak of her online.  There are people watching me in my room and sending messages via private communication.  They aren't supposed to reveal themselves, and I don't think it was to be nice, like when my dad turned on Michael as the Phantom and then Cabaret when I happened to come out, last night.

Just Relaxing

Looking forward to a quiet evening, well, leaving the house.

Apology

I'm sorry, I tried to make up for the suggestive topic on IMDb I thought everyone liked..

Problem

My dad won't stop bothering me and talking to me in secret messages.  He was supposed to come home from work at lunch to take me somewhere.  Now, he thinks I'm going to the gym after work even.  He also haphazardly decided not to take me to a certain place soon, as well.

Not that Baad

A girl goes up to Sabrina and friend and she says the friend is frizzy.. Sabrina changes her sock color.  The other girl wasn't that bad.

Nonsensical

It doesn't make sense only Nell Burton experiences things with others.  It's because of who her dad is.  Like, her mom has to act like she's waiting to meet people.  They do that to me for what I did other than who my parents are, so that's dirt to them.  I am wondering what everyone else does that keeps them happy, having those cutesy teacher moms.  Not having black hair because you're half Chinese and your dad's a good-looking brunette.  Things like swim and gymnastics and ballet.  My parents don't do all those things for me, like fix my hair, look at my eyes.

Pining Over the 1980s AND

I was alive then but very small.

Remember "Labyrinth" and "The Neverending Story?"

Saaayd (Sad)

I'm watching Sabrina, and it's extremely depressing to know you might not meet anyone famous and same for your fellow citizens.. or people together to converse that you like a lot, same thing..

All I Found So Far - 1965





Bad?

If the mental hospital is not a nice place, not as bad as some jails, does that mean we're bad?

Testing the Waters

for me

Apology

I was in a bad mood and a commercial disturbed me before.

Dark People

We feel sorry for them if we are smart and attractive, we don't hate and disclude them.

Posting on IMDb

I guess Ellen was introduced to mature feelings early, and Tim Burton is following her.. and people like me never do it at all.  I am Northeastern from the South.

Funny

Tim Burton, who I respect, isn't coming back to direct Alice in Wonderland 2.  Guess he has what he wants.  No offense..?

So

This girl on the Bing Bang doesn't seem like she'll stop hoping.  She might win over the white blonde nerd Chloe Sevigny.  She has a lot in common.

Like

I don't want to get lazy and risque.  I just said to myself I'm mad.  Then bullshit came and I didn't know where it came from.  I had to go up to k***.  I do not get how my life is going.  I just need more time alone to calm down, but I couldn't sleep and got hungry!  I saw my dad or mom put out an empty box of energy bars.

Old Humor

The Big Bang Theory

A guy has a TV over a shirt with his head talking.  He wants them to like it.  A girl says, "I don't see the difference."  He says, "Thank you, .. that's what I was going for."

Cooking

I am baking a cake|brownie from scratch.  It's in the oven.

Commercial

A girl was at a wedding, and there was this girl so attractively modeling a car and she was like oh no and left the wedding because like the attractive girl would be upset she waited so long to be so happy, since most of the world isn't like that.  :)  She would realize all her life could have been better and break down.

Commercial

Has everyone seen the Suburu commercial.  They show the girl was in there since she was a baby and now her mom lets her in the front seat and she's like smiling happy, like a teen, saying, "Whoo uh h t?"  They drive away and she says it again.  People don't think I can kid but everybody else can!  They did this since I was 11!  Like she said it partly with an attitude!  The thing was that she was just being friendly and figured out a way to say it better, but I can still tell!!