My point was..
..I had to think I was upset bargaining I'd get upset again otherwise. I'll try to ignore again. All the messages I deny, so I dunno now, I mean before that seemed like the go' (goal.)
TV
"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"
It was nice to see Jeenie. She was so cute but didn't seem as happy at the end. She reminds me of me.
The nuns were so funny! It was hard to believe they were real nuns. I also am not marrying nor dating now. I do like flirting.
The dancer was really cute!
Loni was so funny. The 1st girl to answer seemed really nice but could use some more friends~
The student going to an Ivy League school was cool, as well! I am so happy for him + seeing his family!
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So, yea, I was wondering about other people who watch the show. I've talked to people online, but it's not very rewarding, as most don't put much effort to respond and I don't have a collection space to show it off.
It was nice to see Jeenie. She was so cute but didn't seem as happy at the end. She reminds me of me.
The nuns were so funny! It was hard to believe they were real nuns. I also am not marrying nor dating now. I do like flirting.
The dancer was really cute!
Loni was so funny. The 1st girl to answer seemed really nice but could use some more friends~
The student going to an Ivy League school was cool, as well! I am so happy for him + seeing his family!
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So, yea, I was wondering about other people who watch the show. I've talked to people online, but it's not very rewarding, as most don't put much effort to respond and I don't have a collection space to show it off.
Problem
Bad words CAME to me. So sorry! I also thought ha ha what if someone hurts you I know all about this stuff. Not funny, but this is so incessant. All the time people are interrupting the inner flow of my brain. All the time! I'm not being overly emotional. I'm just saying.
Problem
I can say something and not really harm anyone and make my stand, but that's what they don't want, how personal and disgusting!
Problem
My dad sounded like he said in a bad New Orleans accent, "You ain't gonna -fall- down." HE'S THE 1 BEING MEAN TO ME!! I'm going somewhere, and I don't want this to be on my mind really..
Problem
Now, these people are threatening me. I have nothing to do with their lives. What is this shit?
Problem
My parents are still bothering me. My mom keeps saying words like to associate shit with my future daughter|kids.
Getting Over an Anger Episode
My dad won't quite messing with me. He's coyly looking at his DJing and he put on stuff to annoy me and then went off and did stuff I don't know about. I had to admit just how mad I was so it wouldn't come out. I got an image I didn't like that I had to revel in but barely. I cannot say what my real feelings are but that this is preposterous to flag me out to the world bad for no reason. It's Tim Burton or related stuff that did that. It might be the N word thing. Even - okay I'm back. You all need to know when you think of k***ing someone that the result is disgusting. I pictured something like wrapped in spider web, like on the TV show I watch, the beginning intro. to each show, a spider wrapping a bug, "Those Who Kill" starring Chloe Sevigny. So, no, I did not revel in it itself, but it made me feel like I wasn't bothered and tried to erase it. I didn't think it on purpose. There might be something in me that could not stop it unless turned on and peppy. If I just sit there, I'll have no defense mechanism. And I'm not a dork, though this isn't the time to be wondering. I had more to say. What's wrong with my dad picking music he wants? He made me lose focus when I said someone, unnamed, was a nonentity. I just sorta dozed off! I didn't mean anything. Why just give up on relationships with me? I was in bed trying to go to sleep then woke up and had to eat. The music he played was stuff I didn't wanna hear. It was just for saying nonentity by accident. Of course, I'm viciously angered. I don't think you guys care, though, nor does he, with whom you like to converse - being mean to me! I'm more angry about these people constantly reminding me of saying nonentity.
Tonight Tonight
I'm just relaxing and cooling off and will get to bed in no time, wake up early and exercise and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" at some point.
Apology
Sorry about last night.. I was a bit upset but am feeling better where I am. I'm over it, shoulda put on music or something or just tried harder to go to bed.
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What's'uh Big Idea?
What's with the idea I can never be right?
So, you bothered me and messed me up and the proof is in the pudding?
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So, you bothered me and messed me up and the proof is in the pudding?
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