Problem

Howcome when I comment on something, it seems like Ellen gets mad?  I am not mean, but others are.

Why is she being mean to me?  Trying to tell me my place?  People have ruined my life!  Sometimes, she said she has weird things like that as reasons.

My left hand is still shaking, from when I was mad..

Everyone said I was just a shy, sweet, smart girl who needed to get out of her shell but in other ways never change.  Why can't I function?  I literally can't do anything BUT posts pictures of St. Augustine, a joke.  That's something I enjoy seeing and would showing whoever is interested.  Too bad I don't have my old friends.

What, does something this sweet offend|insult.. you??  I don't mean to be rude!  I'm listening.

Let me just say that I got a strange message, like that people need to be mean to me if Ellen is.

Well, okay..  A post filled with some emotion on something.  Not too shabby.  I just can't get to sleep.

Think about that, Ellen extending her weaknesses and repeating it to think she's right to be mean to me cuz so many people are.  Some people don't do that..  I'm not trying to argue in her face, but this is the place to talk and solve things.  It's just interesting and maybe I need some feedback.. might go post a shortened version on IMDb.

Sorry, again..

..about the confusing comment.  Something came over my being careful.  Guess I must pay the price.  The thing is lots of people are like this, all the time to me, if it interests you.  I didn't mean it outfront or whatever.

Oh no!

Sorry about that post, but I noticed something important.. I am just lettting someone get away with something pathetic that they refuse to reason with anymore beyond.

I'll take the effort to apologize.

It's not a good statement to make alone, but I'm pretty stressed.  I've been trying to cut back on this kind of thing specifically now, and sometimes it comes up more when you do that, at 1st.

Mad Lately

I just found I didn't take my pills this morning.  My mom didn't get them out.

Also, before, I thought something violent but not really, I was so mad like with myself.  I am trying to not fix it now, and I just go along, even if I feel submissive, I just brush that thought aside.  I was mainly upset because things could get to me and no one would care.

Something I can talk about is my dad said I was usually asleep on Fridays for lunch.. it's a kind thing to say, but with it comes discomfort..  It's not something he said before.  I mean, if he said it upfront would be okay.  It seems alright..  It makes me sad.  I am sad I may have hurt him sorta by accident, like when I'm mad and close the door-

I also care about other people who are ^affected^ by me.  What do you expect?

Apology

I'm sorry, I tried to make up for the suggestive topic on IMDb I thought everyone liked..

Apology

I was in a bad mood and a commercial disturbed me before.