Well

Sorry, if that's wrong, to introduce a sentence such as that like that.  It does not matter what my Gramma and aunt think wrongly about what I do cuz I don't do anything!  You guys make noises around my room all day that annoy me and come in and slice through me when you see me!  What don't you get?!  Why should I care?!

Problem

They said they picked a slate because I said my Gramma and aunt don't matter in what you think for the plays this year where I'm auditioning.  Didn't see any musicals or anything like that.

Mad Lately

I just found I didn't take my pills this morning.  My mom didn't get them out.

Also, before, I thought something violent but not really, I was so mad like with myself.  I am trying to not fix it now, and I just go along, even if I feel submissive, I just brush that thought aside.  I was mainly upset because things could get to me and no one would care.

Something I can talk about is my dad said I was usually asleep on Fridays for lunch.. it's a kind thing to say, but with it comes discomfort..  It's not something he said before.  I mean, if he said it upfront would be okay.  It seems alright..  It makes me sad.  I am sad I may have hurt him sorta by accident, like when I'm mad and close the door-

I also care about other people who are ^affected^ by me.  What do you expect?

Problem

I talked about Ellen's pix as a kid being suggestive, and now I'm treated with being taken advantage.  Also, I was upset and admitted it to myself and it made me think violent "things."  My life is just tough, and peoiple have no right to monitor me like this.

Problem

Someone answered me about Karen Carpenter, and I listened to her recently but didn't speak of her online.  There are people watching me in my room and sending messages via private communication.  They aren't supposed to reveal themselves, and I don't think it was to be nice, like when my dad turned on Michael as the Phantom and then Cabaret when I happened to come out, last night.